i HEART paul frank.

i love u embah

well it took me a while..
ok 5 mths to heal my heart
someone i really loved past away this year
my dearest granfather

i have regrets,deep regrets in my heart
i admit i did not spend enough time wif him these past few years
with the N n O lvls
bt i did squeeze time to go visit him

the day my granfather laid to rest was hard for my family n me
all my cousin n me cried our heart out
tintin even passed out
i cried by the door slowly sliding unable to grasp the fact
abg hafiz went quiet so suddenly
my bro was out of sights
my dad was crying n he didnt drive cuz his hand was shivering
it was something wen i saw this side of my father
he loved his dad same as i do to him
he alwaes say that embah alwaes ask abt me n my twin bro wenever dad stops by to send back the taxi
the heartbreaking thing i heard frm my dad was that the last time he ever talked with embah was wen he was returning hme frm a whole day of driving taxi,embah ask if he has eaten,if nt he offered to eat wif him.
my dad said its ok n went off

memories stars filling in mind even nw as i write this blog
he was a very cheerful man,alwaes smiling
i might regret making him angry wen i was young wif my stubborness
bt he will alwaes give in to me
i wanted candy he gave,he even waited for me in the rain
i even secretly wished that i would b able to present my wife to him
i guess god had other plans

i want to salute my father,i really do
cuz u know y?
he used his own medisave to pay my grandfathers bill
his othr brothers did not wan to use their as they say they are old n might need it
well my father too need it for his own health u noe
i was quite angry wen i heard this.
bt father did not say anything
he jz held my granfather hand n stayed by his side
n he agreed to pay for my grandfathers bill unselfishly
my aunty all tell me that i shld rmmbr my dad n wen he is old i shld give mine
i nodded silently.
dnt wry dad u gt 3 sons who wil spend money for u even hw expensive it is
i did nt look dwn on my uncles,bt i looked up more of my father

my dad me n hazwan stayed vigil n watch of my grandfather wen he was warded in cgh
i stayed for 4 days straight there.my otr cousin gt duties like ns to perform bt otherwise stayed along wif me wen they are nt

the day he passed away i did nt sleep much the day before,like 30 mins
i stayed watch of my embah as i hear his wails
it hurts me

i guess i wish b like my dad
wait i want to b like my dad
he is my hero
always

1:28 PM

stuck in my room today trying to finish up my 40 sketches and the a3 size bk
n nw i gota think of my idead or plan for the final
damn..tats a lot to do
thank god im gettin a bit better at drawing..hehe
bt not so much..
there is gd news
the block is ending soon and i wnt b drawing anymore
yay

if only god knew,wait,he knew it alrdy

1:27 AM

wow..i love the meaning this songs has
bila rindu by ruffedge

dikeheningan malam,
termenungku berseorang
tak lena mata dipejam
terdengar suara terngiang
suara merdu yg di sayang
bagai kau didepan mata
ku capai tapi tak kenal
sukarnya memendam rasa
ingin ku luahkan kata

bila rindu,terkenang mu sayang terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam,makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang
aku rindu,sentuhan mu ku rasa sayu
inginkan jiwamu selubungi,jiwa ini,bawa ku dlm pelangi
melepasi segala hati ini

jauh angan ku lena,ku rasa kita bersama,kau bawaku ke sana
ke alam kisah yg lama,kenangan di dlm jiwa..
bila tersedar semula,disisiku kau tiada
sukarnya ku pendam rasa,ingin ku luahkan semua

12:16 PM

wow..i havent been blogging for quite some time..haha
i guess i jz recap of the events that happened last week
jz the fun parts..hehe

ok..lets start wif class outing,it was on monday,,
it was so fun ah,17 peopl turned for it
eddy aka the boss planned it and like alot of ppl went
so we went to watch hell boy2.
the show was good bt to me it was like draggy..
haha. the guys say my standard was like alfie's already
the movie was like at 4.40 n we planned to met at 1 to eat lunch n gather hhaa
after lunch we went to the..ARCADE!
so fun laa..
all the guys whack the meter thingy..
san winner sia..890000 pts
OWNING!
afta the movies we went to walk2 to orchard..haha
btw..ppl if u happened to enter the john little near somerset.
go to the 1st lvl lift on the left
damn shiok ah.
it was like adreline rushing
the lift was like fast ah
the guys,me qiteng,zy,eddy,kenny n the rest got on it n keep goin up n down the floors jz to get the feeling..childish bt het we r guys
must enjoy life b4 poly..

i'll skip the rest of the wkk coz it jz sucks as jz do work one
to the day i had dinner wif san,qiteng,kenny,eddy,alex..
was damn fun ah..we ate pizza hut
talk cock until like 9 or 10
den went to toyrus go play wif toys
den gt to this mentos machine,,haha
i gt the pic by my com crash so i cnt put in yet

hehe

ps:i hope my dear and fathin get well fm their sickness

Labels: the past wk

10:53 AM

A girlfriend is a gift
A gift not to be taken advantaged or abused

But to be loved and cared
Always loving unendingly
For she will love u the same

I love my wholeheartedly
How about yours?
<3

Labels: giving poem a go :)

1:05 AM

Wah..Alas..COMDI is done..haha..brush the dirt of my shoulders..
haha..ok..i will ask the photo of the gents project 3d remake toilet from rowell.
thanks to this guy we can try for the CDI.hope the people like our project den we can go out of singapore.hopeful.haha.

so my week was alright..finally get to c fizah..hehe
school kinda hard..this block is drawing essenstial..i suck at drawing.
need help plus more practice..

nw im stuck in my room drawing it..

damn..nw im kinda more of a geek and nerd back..
haha..gt my groove back at dota.
the guys playing it evrynite..

Labels: Gents Rock

12:55 AM